The world needs more chocolate

i'm not really in a writing mood... i don't feel like analyzing anything... i don't feel like being goofy... i don't feel like being "insightful"... and at that i'm gonna stop cause i don't feel like complaining :)

nobody's stilll on and what i really feel like doing though is talking to people. at school, i could at least talk to people's away messages.... mildly entertaining.... but nobody's even online and away now...

i was at home but my mom and i started this awfully boring pathetic john wayne movie... yuck... there are some of those i like... hatari especially... i like hatari alot, but htis... this was.. anyway.. i left cause she wanted to keep watching it just to make fun of it.. i tried that for a while, but i got sick of it.. there's nothing really to do so i came over here to talk to people who may just exist in my imagination because i haven't seen them in sooooo loooooooooong :)

lalalalalalalla

i could just start putting random quotes on here... i found a whole bunch when i was writing my speech last year... or i could copy and paste stuff out of reflection papers and worldview papers and make myself sound all philosophical and stuff... but that's not fun on a dreary day..

this is a very dreary day... it would be a rainy day, but it refuses to rain... it's bein stubborn :) it thinks it can keep me from singing such wonderful rainy songs as singin in the rain. hah! i'll show it.. i can be rather stubborn myself...

do you have any idea how pathetic i sound??!?

i'm arguing with myself about stupid rain clouds... sigh... such is the miserable level i've sunk to :)

maybe i should just go home and go to sleep.... sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep... hmm... nah.. i can't bother people while i sleep... decisions, decisions... hmph

yeah! a person to talk to.... i need more than one, or somebody that's not doin other things... cause long delays in their responces are... arg!!! why am i complaining?! i got what i wanted.. sorta... i have someone to talk to... why can't i leave well enough alone?! arg....

well that was short... they left... now what... back to annoying my self with typing... lalallalalallallalalallalalalallalalalalala

i could type the world's longest words in here... make it look like i at least accomplished something.. but those are really really reallly long.. and i can't spell em anyway...

i could clean out my email but that's what i did for two and a half hours two hours ago.... lalallalalallalalallaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

what to say.... there's nothing to say, but silence although golden is no fun to type....

hmmm

i think i've finally reread through everything i have on my computer... that's alot of stuff... alot of it is made up of papers from 4 yrs of a.p. english... and i've just realized i miss that alot.. i miss getting to read books and analyzing them and looking for symbolism and getting to have fun with it at the same time... sarah ruth's tryin to talk me into bein an english teacher... i would hate the grammer and all the knit-picky detailed stuff, but it would be so fun to get to spend my life reading and analyzing literature with kids every year... i wouldn't mind teaching lit at all, english as a whole though.... maybe i can teach suthun :) maybe it'll be better this semester. i didn't have an english class last semester. i miss getting to read as a mandatory thing... otherwise i have no time to read in the semester anyway. i enjoy reading, so mandatory and voluntary don't make a difference, i just have to make time for one.