Friday, August 05, 2005
no, i did not write this for you. i just realized today that this summer, i've fallen into a rut, and i'm tired of it... this is just what came to mind, so take it or leave it. i'm too tired to care at the moment. and yes, i know it needs work. a lot of it. but i have 4 more weeks before i have to do hw :-P
She's lost who she is
It makes her sad
Although, she lost because she was
She used to be music
outloud, nonstop
Singing for hours on end
She used to be band
challenging pieces
clear unwavering notes
She used to be books
insatiable hunger
vicariously living in words
She used to be writing
poetry at dusk
heartwrenching nonfiction, drama and more
She used to be
But it's gone
She used to be people
that much remains
it consumes her every day
She used to be surrounded
summer came
loneliness not held at bay
She used to be stationary
yet everywhere at once
now her pattern is stagnant
She used to have interests
now she's consumed
with keeping the quiet away
She used to be
She used to be
But why not now?
why can't she change
find what used to be life
Don't replace
but add to
with grace
Mix a pleasing concoction
Songs die in her throat
so sing while alone
Music gathers dust
so play while able
Books age unread
get lost in the pages
Ideas pass, discarded
keep paper at hand
Stop moping for people
Schedule time and enjoy
You don't have to be
what you once were before
Life keeps on growing,
so change, don't start over
Develop talents and hobbies
don't waste days pinning
She's lost who she was
Maybe that was worth losing
Now make something of your newfound clean slate.
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She's lost who she is
It makes her sad
Although, she lost because she was
She used to be music
outloud, nonstop
Singing for hours on end
She used to be band
challenging pieces
clear unwavering notes
She used to be books
insatiable hunger
vicariously living in words
She used to be writing
poetry at dusk
heartwrenching nonfiction, drama and more
She used to be
But it's gone
She used to be people
that much remains
it consumes her every day
She used to be surrounded
summer came
loneliness not held at bay
She used to be stationary
yet everywhere at once
now her pattern is stagnant
She used to have interests
now she's consumed
with keeping the quiet away
She used to be
She used to be
But why not now?
why can't she change
find what used to be life
Don't replace
but add to
with grace
Mix a pleasing concoction
Songs die in her throat
so sing while alone
Music gathers dust
so play while able
Books age unread
get lost in the pages
Ideas pass, discarded
keep paper at hand
Stop moping for people
Schedule time and enjoy
You don't have to be
what you once were before
Life keeps on growing,
so change, don't start over
Develop talents and hobbies
don't waste days pinning
She's lost who she was
Maybe that was worth losing
Now make something of your newfound clean slate.
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
so... july 31st came... and passed.... and i never did get to go to houston to see The Phantom of the Opera.. :( guess i won't be taking any thing off of my list of 50 things for awhile.... sigh..
on the bright side though, i got to go to kansas to visit my alabamian roomie :) pretty boring drive, but i had fun up there :) we went to see Seusical, which had wonderful music and fantastic sets :-D so it wasn't the phantom.. but it was great! i still get the music stuck in my head:-P
two weeks and i get to move back on campus, which will be happy. i miss being on campus... but at the same time, i'll miss having a full sized fridge and free food ;-) and seeing my mom all the time...
other than kansas, i haven't really done much this summer... work... class... work... dallas... work.... more class... went to kansas.... work....
oh, if anybody knows where i can find a copy of Safe House, could you tell me? nobody carries it... not blockbuster or any of the local rental places... it's a great movie with patrick stewart and it messes with your head :-P although it has explosions for people who seem to think that's required for a good movie ;-)
last time i went looking for that movie, i got accused of being jenny for the first time in two years ;-) :)
mom and i were talking about it the other day, and texas is definately unique (in a good way! :-P ) here, everybody has the flag on everything. we have businesses named after our flag. it's on shirts and plates and trucks and buildings. it flies in front of buildings all over the place. other states don't do that. (if i'm wrong, by all means, correct me) but as far as we can tell, other states don't really care about their flag... i know what... 2 or 3 other state flags look like... but the texas flag is on a lot of stuff i own.. and i know what most of the old texas flags look like too (one of my favorites being the come and take it flag :-P it's just happy) i guess i just don't understand other state's mind sets... we're very proud of our state. (great, now i have the state song stuck in my head... sigh... ) are other places like that? and just.. show it differently? or... do they just.. not care about their state? it's very confusing to me...
i'm out of things to ramble about. now lizards will go get ready for work w/ a mix of "texas, our texas", the phatom of the opera, suessical, and various band songs stuck in my head... sigh...
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on the bright side though, i got to go to kansas to visit my alabamian roomie :) pretty boring drive, but i had fun up there :) we went to see Seusical, which had wonderful music and fantastic sets :-D so it wasn't the phantom.. but it was great! i still get the music stuck in my head:-P
two weeks and i get to move back on campus, which will be happy. i miss being on campus... but at the same time, i'll miss having a full sized fridge and free food ;-) and seeing my mom all the time...
other than kansas, i haven't really done much this summer... work... class... work... dallas... work.... more class... went to kansas.... work....
oh, if anybody knows where i can find a copy of Safe House, could you tell me? nobody carries it... not blockbuster or any of the local rental places... it's a great movie with patrick stewart and it messes with your head :-P although it has explosions for people who seem to think that's required for a good movie ;-)
last time i went looking for that movie, i got accused of being jenny for the first time in two years ;-) :)
mom and i were talking about it the other day, and texas is definately unique (in a good way! :-P ) here, everybody has the flag on everything. we have businesses named after our flag. it's on shirts and plates and trucks and buildings. it flies in front of buildings all over the place. other states don't do that. (if i'm wrong, by all means, correct me) but as far as we can tell, other states don't really care about their flag... i know what... 2 or 3 other state flags look like... but the texas flag is on a lot of stuff i own.. and i know what most of the old texas flags look like too (one of my favorites being the come and take it flag :-P it's just happy) i guess i just don't understand other state's mind sets... we're very proud of our state. (great, now i have the state song stuck in my head... sigh... ) are other places like that? and just.. show it differently? or... do they just.. not care about their state? it's very confusing to me...
i'm out of things to ramble about. now lizards will go get ready for work w/ a mix of "texas, our texas", the phatom of the opera, suessical, and various band songs stuck in my head... sigh...
