The world needs more chocolate

this weekend, in the process of packing things and moving, i found the huge stack of all my papers from my high school drafting class. aside from my compas, which was evil and hated me, i really liked that class. spent a while yesterday looking through all the drawings... sigh. they were all happy and precise and neat and all OCD. this was where lizards learned to write small and the care that was required for every stroke ended up helping my calligraphy a whole lot (which is weird since on the drawings you can only print in all caps).

i don't want to go to work this morning. i'm very tired of teaching. i'd rather sit around w/ a drafting board all day and draw. the past couple of months, i've felt like i'm constantly behind and never doing my best anywhere... i'm tired of bringing hours worth of work home every day and not enjoying my weekends b/c i'm too stressed about the tons of stuff i need to get done before school starts on monday... and i never get everything done, so i don't feel like i'm going my best, so the kids probably aren't learning like they're supposed to... and i'm just so... drained. these past couple of weeks have been especially tiring, between both jobs and moving and everything else i have to do...

....i'm so tired of trying when i never have enough time or energy to do my best and i never catch up... just... tired...